I always come up with these wonderful plans of how I’m going to blog every week and give you updates and of course, life happens and those plans fall to the wayside. As I was going through yoga teacher training, I thought about updating you on my progress and how things were going, but in the end I decided I’d rather give you an overview after the fact rather than during the heat of it!
Of course, yoga teacher training ended right before Thanksgiving and I became extremely busy with life and work that I wasn’t able to write anything. It might have also been a lack of words, which you’ll understand in a second. So here I am, 8 days before Christmas and I’m finally getting the chance to explain what an amazing experience I had through my training process. Better late than never!
It’s really hard to find the words to describe what happens when you go through a training process like that. Because, at least for me, it was not just a journey about learning how to do yoga poses properly, it was so much more than that. I can honestly say that I finally figured out who I am as a person and what I want out of life. I want to give people the same experience I had that first day I stepped onto my mat at my studio; a sense of peace. That’s really the only way I can describe it.
As we went through training, it became apparent early on that our amazing teachers Julie and Heather also wanted us to find our purpose. They didn’t care if it didn’t end up being in a yoga studio, just to figure out what is holding us back in life, what we are afraid of. There was one Saturday evening we had to write down our “story”, whatever it was that drove us to have those negative thoughts about ourselves that our ego feeds on. Whatever we were holding onto because we were too afraid to let it go. After writing them down, we shared them with someone in training that we weren’t as close to because they wanted us to expose our stories and get rid of the crap that was weighing us down. Man was it rough, but it really was such a freeing exercise.
As I write this I realize that was the purpose of training, not to just learn how to teach yoga, proper alignment and cues. Those are all important, but the main purpose of training was to get us to let go of whatever was holding us back and make us more present in our daily lives. Our ego reminds us of our stories day in and day out because we let it, but honestly we don’t need to be stuck in our past experiences. I’ve learned that they are important and they shape us to be the people that we ultimately become, but we don’t have to let them take over our lives. We’re all human, we all make mistakes, but the most important thing is whether we learn from those mistakes or allow them to replay themselves in new forms over and over again.
I chose that quote above because I feel it sums up my yoga teacher training in a nutshell. For me, my decision to start training was a new chapter in my book, but after the two months I spent with some of the most wonderful human beings I’ve ever met, it created even more chapters in my life than I could have imagined. Just that exercise of letting go allowed me to put so many issues about myself and my past away and look at life with a new intention. Never allow yourself to become stuck on one moment in your life because so many more will present themselves and you don’t want to miss a second of them!
It really was a crazy, emotional experience, but I knew that this was the exact time in my life when I needed it and really when I would get the most out of it. Had I decided a few months or even a year earlier, I don’t think it would have been the same. I definitely wouldn’t have appreciated it as much or taken it to heart. If you are a yogi and your studio is offering teacher training, do it. It is a bit pricy, but if you are even considering it for a second, do it. I promise, you won’t regret it. I don’t and I believe it was one of the most pivotal moments in my life.
And yes, I’m already planning on when I’ll do my 300 hr vinyasa training and Baron Baptiste’s Level One power vinyasa training :).